I’m sorry, I’m giving up on you. I can’t do this to myself anymore. I’m tired of feeling safe while I’m around you, I’m tired of just wanting to hold you, I’m tired of wanting everything back. I’m tired of it all. I remember I promised you I wasn’t going to let go but I just can’t do this anymore. I tried, I really fucking tried so hard and I know you noticed how hard I tried but you just don’t say it. I know you so fucking well by now. You taught me how to observe people. I know you remember all those things you said to me that Friday, you’re just scared. Scared that I know your weaknesses now. You know I have the power to change you and you’re scared. I can see it in your eyes. But you know what, theres always a point where a person just has to give up not because they want to but because they have to. Maybe in the future you will begin to realize that everything I’m saying is true, but until then, I’m done. I’m sorry.

I don’t need you anymore. I don’t need any of this stress anymore. I’m done. I have known that I had the power to end everything but I just didn’t use it because I wanted to give us another chance, instead of looking at all the bad things, I only looked at the good things. But here I am, saying goodbye. I can’t do this to myself anymore. I base my days around you. I feel safe when ever I’m around you and so I try my hardest to see you hoping that I will and if I don’t, I just feel extremely sad and down all day. This weekend just made me realize so much. You came to my friends house at 4 in the morning, you just showed up. I remember sitting down talking to one of my friends and looking up and you were just there, I couldn’t stop staring at you. As soon as you walked through that door, I felt safe. I felt happy. You have the power to completely change my mood, but I also have the power to stop you from doing that and I’m going to start using it. It was nice having you in my life, you really meant a lot to me. I still remember the first day I met you like if it was just yesterday, our connection was so powerful that not only we noticed, but everyone else did. We could have had something really special and you know that. You’re so different now and I blame myself for you changing, I’m sorry. I really am sorry. We both fucked up but we also both had the chance to forgive each other and try again but we didn’t. So many people tell me to let go, to move on because you aren’t right for me, because I deserve better but for some reason I just keep trying and trying but now, I’m done. I can’t do this anymore. I will show you that I am strong enough to walk away just like you did. But once I’m gone, I swear, you will realize everything I did for you. You will realize that you pushed away someone who really cares about you. I feel the need to protect you and to save you from all this stress that you have and trust me, I tried to be there for you but you’re just so confusing. You don’t know what you want. I’m done. It’s over. Maybe not forever, but for now…I’m done. You will realize everything. I just really fucking hope you don’t realize too late. Goodbye, I’ll miss you.